“Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders. Let me walk upon the waters, wherever You would call me. Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander and my faith would be made stronger in the presence of my savior.”– Oceans by @hillsongworship .
It is amazing that just hearing a song can take us back to a moment, and experience it all over again. When I hear certain songs, I can go back to exact moments of my past. I can remember the emotions I felt, what was happening around me and even smell the same smells all over again. Songs also have this amazing ability to make us feel stronger or take us to a happier place. Oceans by Hillsong United is one of those songs for me.
When I was pregnant and grieving the life I had envisioned for myself and my child, I would ask why me!? What did I do to deserve this? Have I done something wrong, and now I’m being punished? I would cry endlessly for this life I had envisioned, and this “perfect” child I thought I wanted. The fear I felt when I was pregnant was so great and consuming that at times it felt unbearable. I have never felt a fear that great before. There were times when I didn’t know how I would get through the next few moments, much less the next few months until he was born.
Then I would hear this song. It would come on Spotify or the radio at the exact moment I needed it to. It would instantly calm me, like a wave of peace washing over me. Some days I would worry so much that I barely slept. I know this sounds crazy, but I would wake up hearing this song in my head. This song got me through so much while I was pregnant, and it honestly still does. Whenever I am feeling unsure of myself or like I can’t get through something, I listen to this song and remember that my faith is greater than my fear. This song reminds me that God wouldn’t call me to do something if He didn’t already know I could handle it.
Now I know He knew exactly what He was doing. He was giving me everything I needed. He has always had these plans for me. He has been preparing me for this my entire life. He made Easton perfectly in His image, and just for me. 💛
I have always wanted a sign with these lyrics that are so close to my heart on it. The amazing mama over at @thishandpaintedhome made this sign for me. Her signs are beautiful, and she is wonderful to work with. She was very patient with me when I was being extremely indecisive about what exactly I wanted on it. She wanted to make sure I got exactly what I wanted, and I did. I love it so much. I hung it over my bed so I could see it every night and every morning to remind myself of my faith and many, many blessings.
What is your favorite song? Why is it your favorite? Comment and let me know!